I'm back and I'm better.

I'm back. For a while I lost my original mindset. I've become conflicted with my own feelings, because of the constant feud between my mind and my heart. Forever unsure if my decisions are the right decisions and never knowing what I should do or if what I'm doing is what's best for me. I've come to the realization that I need to let it go. Feel first and think later, let my heart guide me to my future. I truly believe if I put my all in everything with a full heart, it cant be the wrong decisions. Trust my feelings, over logic, even if that down end up hurting myself, I would've learned something. The fight between logic and feeling is over, I've decided the only logical thing to do is trust my feelings and don't doubt them again because I know my feelings for anything is very powerful. For I am passionate about everything. So I shouldn't try to drown out the voice of my heart worried it wont help myself heal, but take the risk of being hurt again, while being okay with it because I need to learn in order to grow and heal. I have too much love to just push it all to the side, I've been stopping myself from growing by doing this. I use to think I needed to get away from everyone in order to truly know who I am or in order to continue to have this mindset, but I was wrong. I tried pushing everyone away so I could heal but I've only been hurting myself more. I thought I needed to be alone but truthfully I just need to be around the right people. I've found a person that I feel myself the most when I'm around her. After being around her I realized I love giving my love to others, and I should stop refusing my own feeling. This year is about love, loving myself and loving everyone else. If I do everything with love and care, the universe will guide me too the right direction. I need to listen to myself more, because I know love makes the world go round and by stopping myself from loving, the world has been on pause. Earth stopped spinning and now it's time to make it spin again. I love myself and I love you.